miki: (Default)
I AM THE TUMOR THAT ROTS IN YOUR MOUTH
THE TRUTH THAT YOU
SPIT OUT
I AM THE GROUND IT LANDS UPON
THE ONE THAT
DOES NOT BELONG
I AM THE MISTAKE THAT YOU BELIEVED
THE ITCH YOU
CAN'T RELIEVE
I AM THE WORM USED FOR BAIT
THE MAN THAT YOU HATE









Make enemies

they last longer




Comment to friend.
All comments screened... until I reply.

miki: (★ smells like children)
I'm here, but it seems like no one else is. That's fine. It's been... eight years since I have updated this. Holy shit? That is just bananas. A lot has changed, and a lot hasn't. I want to get back into journaling and see how it makes me feel. I was a mess back then, I'm still a mess now but I think I'm finally ready to start uncluttering.

So, what's been going on?

Well, I'm in Toronto now. I've been here since 2010. I've had a lot of interesting jobs and interesting things happen. I still struggle with ED. I recovered from Ana, went to binging, now I'm back to Ana again my dear old friend.

I'm on meds. Not sure about them yet. They do seem to help but there are side effects to them that are interesting sometimes.

I've taken up meditation and yoga. A lot of it. It's really been helping me. Today I woke up with some pretty severe anxiety and I tuned into this awesome meditation app. Voila. I feel grounded and good.

I don't really want to recap the last eight years. Since no one is likely to read this. Just that I am okay. I am alive, I am well. I'm pursuing my dreams and figuring my life out. I feel, more and more, I am starting to let go of this idea that I should be somewhere I am currently not. That I about have all of these things I don't have yet. I'm finding peace, and that is majorly because of meditation and mindfulness.

I'm where I need to be. Even if it isn't always positive or good. My life is about developing me.